New Year's Resolution- "pre-test" (the heart of the blog is at the end)

After being a Mega B... last week, I decided that for 2010 I would truly try to make one of my resolutions be this: If I think I will come off as a Mega B... (typically toward my husband, who is generally trying to be nice) then I should hold my tongue.
Today was a true test. Here are the circumstances:
1) Berk Family Christmas - one can generally guarantee 10-50 people at a Berk Family get together. I like people, at least I think I do, but it's times like these that I start to feel the walls closing in.
2) Hubs, who checked the road conditions every day this weekend when we didn't have any where to go- did not check the road conditions today.
3) Hubs decided to take the back Hwy to save miles instead of the more traveled Hwy.
4) Said back Hwy was snow packed/ice covered with blowing snow.

I don't think I have to elaborate... let's just say, I did better then one might expect. We made it to our location with semi-limited snide remarks from me. And I only bit off 2 heads upon arrival (one saw us walk half-way in the door and said I will hold the baby, to which I said NO, you will not hold the baby. I will. The other said about five minutes after our arrival- your baby is too little to not be taking naps. I gave her a seriously evil glare and said "She is FINE." plus she wasn't listening. We didn't say that she doesn't take naps... she does... and she really does well... What ev's! I don't mind some advice, but when someone blatantly tells you that you are doing something wrong and they don't know you or your situation- they can shove off!

Now to the real heart of this blog... We let stupid things, like the things sited in this blog get the best of us. We let other things control our lives and we worry about everything from bills, to work, to weather, to relationships, to dust on the back of the TV (ok, not so much of that). And we lose site of the most important things. All of our blessings. As I sit here and reflect I realize that I am lucky to have someone telling me how to raise my baby... when I have 2 close friends who just had that opportunity wrenched from them. Why do I have to reflect in order to see that? Why can't I think that in the moment? Maybe my New Year's Resolution will be this: When something upsets me, take a deep breath, smile and come back to it later. (that will be a challenge, but what is a Resolution that isn't a challenge?) When something pleases me, take a deep breath, really enjoy the moment, say a prayer of thanks and remember it later. (For example, something as simple as this: I started to cry while reflecting on this... my nose started to run, I stood up to get a kleenex and found one in my pocket (a clean one)) We are blessed in so many ways. I really could go on and on... and maybe I should start my list, but I think I have started to realize that even the things that we think are not blessings, really can be, when we look at them from another person's perspective...

For 2010, I will breathe.

I heard about this Christmas Tree Skirt idea..

When I looked for more information I found this blog about the Handprints Christmas Tree Skirt idea. Turns out to be a pretty funny explanation of the whole process. I think I will learn from her- get the felt, the acrylic paint, pinking sheers and call it good!! (I didn't read any more of her blog, but it could be interesting.) I wish I had more time to blog. Or at least more time to read blogs. Life is funny- it's just a matter of how you look at it all.


http://yourneighborhoodlibrarian.blogspot.com/2007/12/if-you-strike-me-down-i-shall-become.html

Realization...

I don't like thinking about having more kids because I feel like I'm just saying "Baby E, you were fun, but I want a new baby"... that probably doesn't make sense, but it just seems like I don't care about her if we tried to have another baby. I think I have fuzzy logic here... anyone have some guidance??

Ten year class reunion to catch up- BUT

"We don't really want kids there"
Hmmm... isn't the reason for "catching up" to share your life as it is now?!?! Nope, not with my idiotic classmates. "10 Year! Let's do it up right!!!" (aka- time to get completely Trashed!)
I'm just disgusted!! I was hoping they had grown up a little.
One of my "friends from HS" actually said "well, maybe our 15 year reunion could be about kids. But not our 10 year." What a dumb mentality! Yes, more of us (that do not die from Alcohol poisoning in the mean time) might have kids, but some will be 15, some will be 10, some will be 5, some will be babies... DUH!!
I was a little excited about getting together to see how everyone has grown... now I'm just as happy to forget it.
One of my guy friends from High School said he would love to see me and my family even if the 10 year is just a night thing without kids. "maybe we could get together just us for lunch on Sunday" Hmmm.... if you really cared about all of that- you would have been involved in my life more over the last 9 years (he was good for about 1 year, then he got too busy "doing it up right".) Can anyone say "awkward"!!
What ev's!!!
I'm out!